The Story Behind Enigma

I found Enigma tucked away in Skeleton Crew , an old Steven King book of short stories
The date on it was November , 1991
I was 31 years old when I wrote it
I don't remember writing it at all
But I do remember that I was in the middle of a muse inspired writing frenzy
I wrote a lot in that period
I remember some of them , but not this one
I posted this for a couple of reasons
Tomorrow the Nobel Prize goes to a poet
Hurray!!!
When I was in my writing frenzy
In 91 and 92
I used to dream I would be the youngest ever to win one of those

But I was smart enough to realize I would of had to die first
I had a lot of problems
Alcohol
Drugs
A real bad attitude
And a huge chip on my shoulder
Still do ... but a little more under control now
The delusions of awards and peer acceptance are gone
Now I don't give a fuck about either
I never published any of my work until now
I have thought about it from time to time
But good sense has always prevailed
Another reason I am posting this is because on February 23, 1993
I burnt all my poetry
At least I thought I did
I'll never forget that day
I bought a 24 of beer
2 hits of acid
And burnt over 200 poems
1 novel
And the drafts for 3 other novels
I haven't given a fuck about anything since
You can like this
Or not
Believe me
Or not
I don't give a fuck
I am doing this on my terms
By my rules
And maybe I'll live